I remember
the flicker of emergency
bare footsteps in the sand
you danced around the cauldron
of threats
and delusion
desire

I remember
blue eyes gleamed molten
storyteller of betrayal
you wove me into vows
of undoing
and gratitude
grace

I remember
the moment
monstrous surreality
fell away
as
the walls of faith unzipped
revealing just another empty room
in which you stood
uncontained
your promises
small burnt offerings
to the rubble
of god
and fatherhood

I remember
all that went
before

and now
in this cold small room
of my ending
want

no one

.